private 03

Posted on: 09/25/2024 at 12:35pm

"you could drive around town and ask grocery stores and gas stations for empty boxes" that sounds time consuming and incredibly embarrassing when we could literally just buy more boxes. also can i fucking rest for five seconds

private 02

Posted on: 09/24/2024 at 10:11am

i haaaate hate hate that i'm the one with the most time out of the three of us yet it feels like i'm the one with the least control. i have the least things to pack the least opinions on what we do and don't bring. it feels like i'm nearly done with everything but there's still so much to do because no one else has time to do what i can't do for them! and the one time i tried to make a decision on my own it was veto'd. how the hell am i supposed to be confident in making decisions about this sort of thing if the one i DO make is reversed. ugh ugh ugh i'm so tired and my chest hurts. i wish i worked the rest of this week at least just so i had an excuse to not be the only one who has the time and the means to do anything at all

what's also REALLY frustrating is that i suggested "hey why don't you call off work so you can get more stuff done" and it felt like my suggestion was just. brushed off. like i'm sorry the only days you don't work are wednesday and friday do you REALLY want only four days to get any dedicated work done on moving out? what are you going to do with little three hour stretches that you need to spend doing other things like Eating and Homework anyway?? it's just frustrating and i feel like i'm being left out to dry. i wish log would communicate with me i wish i didn't have to poke and prod them every single time i needed something done AAAAAAAAA

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private 01

Posted on: 09/22/2024 at 5:20pm

i'm scared of being bad. of having someone see something i wrote and getting mad at me for it. it makes me not want to say anything in public ever again.